By Sheila Nicolin

A cikin 'Mafarkin Zazzabi na cikin gida', wani adadi mai dogon gashi shudin shudi da rigar rigar lemu mai girman gaske yana zaune a teburin. A saman, wani gilashi mai cike da rawaya, lemu, da fararen furanni. Gefen gilashin gilashi, tukunyar yumbu tana aiki a matsayin toka ga mutumin da ke fitar da furanni. Runtse idanu sukayi suna sanye da nuna makoki, wayewar gari a cikin kicin dinsu. “Ana faɗar wannan aikin ta hanyar hangen nesa. Yana ta'allaka ne kan jin katsewa kuma yana jaddada sirrin ciki wanda ya samo asali daga jin an kama shi a ciki da kuma katse shi daga wasu a duk lokacin keɓe.” A cikin hirarmu da mawakin, Sheila Nicolin tayi tafiye-tafiye ta hanyar binciken gwagwarmayar ɗan adam wajen neman kusanci.

Mawaƙin na tushen Detroit ya kwatanta aikinta a matsayin mai yunƙurin rayuwa na baya, gaskiyar almara, da kokarin fahimtar wadanda ke kusa da ita. Siffar ɗan adam a cikin ayyukanta na zane-zane tana wakiltar ma'anar jeji a cikin ɗan adam: saba, gayyata, da kuma baki, kuma ba za a iya isa ba. Yin amfani da alamar bayyanawa, m launi, da tsarin dissociative, tana haifar da wani labari marar dogaro kuma wani lokacin karkatacciyar labarin kusanci.

Nicolin tana nazarin hulɗarta da dangantakarta da abokanta, iyali, da kuma sanannun ta hanyar daukar hoto, rubuta, da zane-zane, cikakken ilimin tasirinta a fasaha. Yayin da aikinta ke sake fasalin fasahar gargajiya ta hanyar ruwan tabarau na ma'amala mai cike da rugujewa., ta yi kira ga ɗan adam ta hanyar gina labari mai zuwa tare da maƙasudin manufa: don samun haɗin kai na gaskiya.

“Na girma a cikin gida mai kirkira. Mahaifiyata malamar fasaha ce, don haka kullum muna yin sana'a a gida: collages, tsugunne, dinki, zane, zanen, da sauransu. Mahaifiyata tana da filin studio a Cibiyar Masana'antu ta Russell a Detroit, sanannen wuri mai ƙirƙira ga masu fasaha, abubuwan da suka faru, da techno, inda na yi wasan buya da kanwata kuma na yi zanen farko na. Mun shafe yawancin Juma'a a matsayin iyali a Cibiyar Fasaha ta Detroit, da, idan kuna mamaki, A koyaushe ina ba da umarnin salad tuna daga gidan abincinsu kuma ina son zane a cikin reshen Turai. Waɗannan abubuwan sun kasance ginshiƙai wajen samar da ilimina da sha'awar fasaha yayin da na ga tun ina ƙarami abin da yake kama da samun farin ciki daga fasaha da al'ummar kirkira.. Yau, Na farko fenti da acrylic don ƙirƙirar manyan ayyukan fasaha na alama, amma tarihin al'umma da fasaha har yanzu sun kasance tsakiyar tsarin kere-kere na.”
Ayyukan zane na Nicolin yana ba da rashin jin daɗi a rayuwa da ƙauna, rashin sani na farko zuwa ga sanin abin da yake na ainihi da rashin gaskiya. 'Mai hankali Downswing’ yana kwatanta adadi da aka lanƙwasa bisa yawan barguna, nutsewa cikin tekun tsananin kadaici da damuwa, da raba abubuwan Nicolin tare da Ciwon Bipolar da gwagwarmayar rayuwa tare da tabin hankali. Ta hanyar zane-zane na Nicolin, Matsayin ciwon hauka yana haɗuwa tare da nuna sha'awar mutum don kiyaye farin ciki da kasancewa a cikin rayuwa duk da toshewar baƙin ciki mai tsanani da mania..

Yayin da jigogin ayyukanta na zane-zane suna da alama suna samun cikas a cikin yanayin kusancin ɗan adam, Nicolin har yanzu ya gaskanta da wajabcin juyin halitta, hawan hawan da har yanzu ba ta bincika ba. “A matsayin mai zane, Ina bincika sababbin dabaru, jigogi, da salon da ke ƙalubalanci da haɓaka iyawa na tare da kowane sabon zanen da na ƙirƙira. A matsayin mutum kuma ɗan kasuwa, A koyaushe ina cikin yanayin metamorphosis yayin da na ci gaba da gwada sabbin ayyuka ta hanyar gina sabbin kasuwanci da jujjuya abin da ke tafiyar da rayuwa ta yau da kullun.. Duk da yake zanen shine nau'in magana akai-akai a gare ni, Na kuma koyi yadda ake buga violin, ko da yake da ɗan rashin ƙarfi, ya fara sana'ar kayan daki na girki kuma ya koyi yadda ake tuka motar daukar kaya mai ƙafa 26, motsi sau da yawa – daga Detroit zuwa NYC, komawa zuwa Pennsylvania da NYC, sa'an nan kuma zuwa Detroit – kuma yayi aiki a matsayin mai tsara samfur don kamfani na farawa.” Hanyoyi na salon rayuwarta suna ƙarfafa injin ta don ƙirƙirar zane-zane na rayuwa, turawa da jan hankalin al'amuran duniya, niyya, da zafin rai.

A cikin 'Sai Kaɗan', haramtaccen bikin kullewa yana faruwa, tafiya zuwa rashin jin daɗin abin da ake nufi da abota a cikin daki mai cunkoso. Kamar yadda wani adadi yake kwance akan bene mai sanyi, suna daga hannu sama don riƙe wayarsu mai haske, Wasu adadi uku suna ƙoƙarin yin zance amma sun ƙare shiru a cikin wuraren jin daɗinsu. Kashe haɗin kai daga gaskiya da haɗin kai zuwa kama-da-wane: Falsafar Nicolin a cikin kwatanta melancholy, kaɗaici, ciki ta hanyar alamu, abubuwa, da motsin zuciyarmu a cikin kaleidoscope na launuka. Cikin rudanin fasaharta, Sheila Nicolin tana gina matsuguni na ɗan lokaci ga kowane baƙo da ke buƙatar nemo hanyarsu ta gida.